wITHOUT IT

wITHOUT IT i wouldn't be me. 

I cannot see into the future, nor can I predict the outcome of my actions.
I can tread carefully through the misty waters but will I truly live if I do? How can
I compete with the thoughts in my head - the ones snaking around the monotony of daily life.
They are screaming at me - they are telling me to have fun.